Thursday, October 27, 2005
1st thing 1st---happy 17th birthday to my dearest brother, wilson chan chin weng!!! any birthday wishes brother??? i`m sure you have. well, may all your wishes come true then!!! and hopefully i can hear some "good news" from you ya??? enjoy your big day!
alright, that`s for will. now got to blog about myself. oh well, actually nothing much in particular happened. i`m just lame, blogging her for the sake of blogging because i feel like doing so. how fantastic can my life be? it`s always wake up, mug, eat, rest, sleep. tell me that my life is just so super boring. i`m bored till i get dizzy spells for the last 3 days. or is there something wrong with my body? i need entertainment, but i guess i have to wait after exams. my conscience is telling me that i should only study, study and just study. how mundane life is!!! so dudes and ladies out there, do study hard while you can. it`s certainly not a good experience to be a private candidate or to repeat. i understood alvin`s words last year. i`m looking at how pathetic i am now. all my friends in my clique who went through jc are all in university or already got a place in university. i guess they should be contented. i`m the worst and i can`t help feeling that way, because that`s the fact alright?! i know encouraging words don`t help now. i`m in a state of self pity and depression. i do not understand why it`s so hard for me to cry now. i always thought i can release my stress and all those craps through weeping. but i think i forgot how to cry. oh dear! but i really have to thank people who forced it on me, made me stronger and despised me.
i thought to myself that life after exams will be get any better as well. got to find a job to earn some cash for my braces and daily expenses. sometimes i do ask myself, do i really have to slog like hell? i slogged like hell for the last 18 years of my life but i don`t reap satisfiable results. SO WHY SHOULD I WORK SO HARD?! i really worry for myself. i`m wallowing in mud---hard to move on.
is this going to come to an end for me. fate decides.
weak... knees, heart, mind...
12:13 PM
1st thing 1st---happy 17th birthday to my dearest brother, wilson chan chin weng!!! any birthday wishes brother??? i`m sure you have. well, may all your wishes come true then!!! and hopefully i can hear some "good news" from you ya??? enjoy your big day!
alright, that`s for will. now got to blog about myself. oh well, actually nothing much in particular happened. i`m just lame, blogging her for the sake of blogging because i feel like doing so. how fantastic can my life be? it`s always wake up, mug, eat, rest, sleep. tell me that my life is just so super boring. i`m bored till i get dizzy spells for the last 3 days. or is there something wrong with my body? i need entertainment, but i guess i have to wait after exams. my conscience is telling me that i should only study, study and just study. how mundane life is!!! so dudes and ladies out there, do study hard while you can. it`s certainly not a good experience to be a private candidate or to repeat. i understood alvin`s words last year. i`m looking at how pathetic i am now. all my friends in my clique who went through jc are all in university or already got a place in university. i guess they should be contented. i`m the worst and i can`t help feeling that way, because that`s the fact alright?! i know encouraging words don`t help now. i`m in a state of self pity and depression. i do not understand why it`s so hard for me to cry now. i always thought i can release my stress and all those craps through weeping. but i think i forgot how to cry. oh dear! but i really have to thank people who forced it on me, made me stronger and despised me.
i thought to myself that life after exams will be get any better as well. got to find a job to earn some cash for my braces and daily expenses. sometimes i do ask myself, do i really have to slog like hell? i slogged like hell for the last 18 years of my life but i don`t reap satisfiable results. SO WHY SHOULD I WORK SO HARD?! i really worry for myself. i`m wallowing in mud---hard to move on.
is this going to come to an end for me. fate decides.
weak... knees, heart, mind...
posted by SERENiFiED PRiNCESS on 12:13 PM
